OAKLAND · NYC · FIRENZE

EMMANUELE ALLAMANI

FILMMAKER

CURRENTLY IN PRODUCTION

TRADE A FEATURE DOCUMENTARY

Every night in Oakland, men of all walks of life slip away from their public lives to meet women they can never acknowledge. These are not affairs or casual encounters, but profound intimacies that exist in the shadows, between people whose identity categories appear constructed in opposition to each other.

Three trans women turn cameras on their "trade," the men who love them only in private. What begins as a portrait of hidden love becomes an investigation into desire, masculinity, and the cost of living split lives.

Fiscally Sponsored by BAVC Media · Supported by UnionDocs and the City of Berkeley Artist Fund

SUPPORT THE PROJECT

Your support ensures this perspective reaches the world, with fair compensation for the collaborators and participants whose lives and courage shape the film. Funds go directly toward production: participant stipends, interview training for collaborators, filming, equipment, and festival strategy.

Participant stipends Production & filming Interview training Festival submissions Impact campaign

TRADE is fiscally sponsored by BAVC Media, making all donations tax-deductible. For larger contributions or executive producer inquiries, contact manni@dontsaycat.net

THE STORY

The word “trade” is a colloquialism used by trans women to name men who maintain heterosexual personas while seeking trans women in private. Sometimes these relationships are tender, sustaining, and real; other times, they are transactional, exploitative, or violent. The term itself carries tension: it suggests exchange, secrecy, and danger, but also a particular form of desire that has persisted across time and place.

Identity categories become traps for everyone caught within them: the men live split between who they are and who they are told they should be, the women live in a world that simultaneously fetishizes and erases them. Yet these are also fugitive intimacies that reveal identity as contested ground: what happens when people pursue recognition across the very boundaries those categories were built to maintain.

Historically, queer cinema has examined “trade” regarding gay men, but little attention addresses trans women’s relationships with straight men. These relationships raise a provocative question: are men who date trans women part of the queer community?

TRADE does not seek to resolve the contradictions of secrecy and desire, but to illuminate them. To hold the complexity without losing sight of the power, and the violence, that lives behind men’s choice to love only in private.

“Why do we keep loving men who can only love us in secret?”

Nikkita walking past Oakland murals

WHERE WE ARE

We’re in active production across Oakland and the Bay Area, with over 20 hours of intimate vérité footage and a proof of concept assembled with editor Pamela Martinez. Three participants are confirmed and the next phase of filming is underway.

Avarii celebrating with her community

WHAT'S NEXT

Launch the participatory investigation: train collaborators in interview technique, begin filming men’s interviews, and shoot the critical collective scene. Deepen individual arcs and build toward assembly.

Nikkita at Santeria mural

WHERE IT'S GOING

TRADE aims to shift the conversation around trans lives, desire, and intimacy. Beyond festivals, we’re planning community screenings, university partnerships, and an impact campaign that centers the communities who shaped the film.

Ballroom scene from production

WHAT WE NEED

Production funding for participant stipends, interview training, filming equipment, and crew. We’re also seeking executive producers, mentors, and community partners who believe in collaborative filmmaking.

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Tax-deductible via BAVC Media · manni@dontsaycat.net

THE TEAM

When I first moved to Oakland at thirteen, my closest friends were men I now understand as “trade.” Discovering that many are now the secret partners of my trans friends brings this tension to the forefront.

Director Emmanuele Allamani Filmmaker and anthropologist, raised between Italy and Bay Area. UnionDocs fellow. AP on Internet Archive documentary.
Editor Pamela Martinez Venezuelan filmmaker, MFA Documentary Film Stanford. Assembled the proof of concept.
Story Producer Alora LeMalu SF-based songwriter and DJ from the South Pacific. Creative partner shaping the men’s investigation.
Associate Producer Haneen Sidahmed Sudanese-American multimedia artist, filmmaker, and archivist. Sudan Tapes Archive.

COLLABORATORS

Three women whose lives, perspectives, and courage drive this film. They are not subjects but co-authors, turning the camera on the men who love them only in private.

Nikkita
Nikkita Spiritual seeker and investigator

“Being attracted to men, a disease, a tragedy, a never ending scam.”

Avarii
Avarii Her healthiest relationship tested by reality

Young, resilient, learning to balance hustle and care alongside her house mother and elders.

Fiera
Fiera Proof that these women can have the love they deserve

“My biggest fear is a man finding his femininity through me.”

“What happens when people pursue recognition across the very boundaries those categories were built to maintain.”

THE FILM

SELECTED WORKS

Kay Sekimachi × LOEWE

Director + Art Direction

What is Trade

15 min proof of concept

Cinema Paradiso

Short Film

Until the Real Thing Comes Along

Short Film

PROCESS

Fiera in an intimate moment

PRESENCE FIRST

My filmmaking starts with presence: sitting with people, earning trust, following stories where they actually go. I make cinema that dwells in contradiction, that suggests through provocation without demanding resolution.

Woman dancing in ecstasy

COLLABORATION AS METHOD

The filmmaking process itself is the methodology, the intervention, the mode of inquiry. Subjects become collaborators, participating in an investigation that is also an intervention into their own lives. The camera is not just witness but catalyst. Community-specific stories can speak across worlds, connecting those often held apart.

Oakland BART train at sunset

TREADING THE LINE

What I am trying to do is tread the line. Finding entry points that force us to hold more together. Holding complexity alongside clarity in values, understanding across lines, shared worlds through difference.

SELECTED WORKS
Emmanuele Allamani portrait
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ABOUT

I was raised between Italy and the Bay Area, in a family whose history runs in opposites. I move through queer, multiple, and ever-shifting identities shaped by life between countries and cultures, and I learned early that identity categories fail to capture what people actually live.

Growing up Albanian-Jewish in Italy, then navigating Berkeley High's working-class communities as both insider and outsider, then living between the UK and Mexico before returning to the Bay taught me how identity shifts across contexts. Building and sustaining real relationships that make collaborative projects possible.

I move between the underground queer and trans art scene, commercial production, activist networks, working-class East Bay neighborhoods, underground music and rave culture, and academic spaces. I connect artists and filmmakers from communities on the fringes with production worlds that have more resources but often lack lived experience.

Building a filmmaking practice that empowers and transforms rather than extracts, rooted in the belief that community-specific stories can speak across worlds, connecting those often held apart.

The most radical position is not the loudest, or the one with the strongest claims to purity, but the one that uncompromisingly acts in alignment with one’s values while holding as much of the world’s complexity within it as possible.

My passion for filmmaking stems from its collective process and capacity for nuance, the way the camera amplifies subtleties, its power to convey what escapes articulation.

Trilingual in English, Italian, and Spanish.

Venue interior with art and atmosphere

WHAT I OFFER

I seek to work on projects that challenge reductive understandings of the world and delve into the complexity of our social realities, finding universal meaning through the layers, nuances, and contradictions that shape all stories.

Filmmaking Approach

Building a filmmaking practice that empowers and transforms rather than extracts, rooted in the belief that community-specific stories can speak across worlds, connecting those often held apart.

Services

Concept development, directing, cinematography, production. Long-form documentary, short-form content, branded work with a message. A local creative team with full production capability in the Bay Area and international reach across the US, Italy, and Latin America.

Camera

  • Sony A7S III
  • Sony A7IV
  • DJI Osmo Pocket 3

Lenses

  • Rokinon Cine AF set + anamorphic
  • Tamron 28-75mm
  • Rokinon 13mm

Audio

  • NTG3 shotgun
  • Tascam 32-bit float recorder
  • Rode Wireless Pro
  • Sennheiser Gold M2 lavs

Support & Lighting

  • DJI gimbal
  • Aputure lights
  • Full production insurance
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